Sep 6, 2008 Mt. Arabia trip

December 22, 2008

Is there not a way to backdate these?

I’m busy as hell, but these are notes I need to flesh out later about the points work yesterday and later conversations/observations/thoughts.

feet & TAG’s vision —  [eta: 9/20-21/08] TAG and I had talked a few times over the years about “unmapped” points (ie, those not belonging to the 97 point system we have pretty well mapped, but rather those that fall outside or peripheral to it somehow, and how they are likely to be part of a larger, probably 360 “degree”, system, many of which have been “lost” at least in the Western world).  Before I had formally begun the points work, I had a dream that has ended up having precognitive and symbolic elements that I was unable to recognize at the time; as the points work continues, I keep finding things that connect back to that dream.  In it, my attention was drawn to a point on the outside of my upper calf, and this Arabia trip we decided to go experimental and see what happened when it was activated. I no longer recall (damn my shitty note taking) whether the second point on my leg was something I got/grokked/sensed, or whether it was something TAG saw/sensed, but I think it was the latter.

In any case, he activated those two points on my legs, and then activated “foot” points.  Again, these are unmapped, but I recall activating somebody’s “feet” at the lave tete earlier this year during their headwashing – why I can no longer tell you assuming I even could then.  It was just one of those things.  no reason to think there was a point there, just a feel that I needed to do that.  The same thing happned with + Dositheos, where I activated some points that aren’t on the map shortly after (if I recall correctly) + Heosphoros activated his hand points.  If I recall correctly, I did his wrist points and then some unmapped points on his sides around the waist.  Later, I looked up a map of the meridians and found that those spots do actually lie along a meridian – -one of those that sort of jags, or curves, rather than running in a straight line.

When he was doing the foot points, he said he had a crucifixion-like vision, and could  “see” nails going into my feet.  I also recall him saying something about those and the leg points having a slightly different “feel” or “energy,” though I think that was *before* they were activated; that “difference” may not be there anymore if they were integrated into the channels of my subtle body.  I dunno. TAG?

I had not too long ago gotten an acupuncture chart illustrating the so-called “extraordinary points” (what that means exactly I don’t know – probably that they are somehow “off the beaten path” in acupuncture, not on one of the main meridians).

“saw” something 2.5 times; Blue’s neck, Sh’s head, my leg (not exactly points in most cases) – I don’t “see” the points.  I feel them, and as they often move and wiggle on a living person, sometimes it takes me a  bit to get them by feel.  But anyway, this time, I didn’t see points exactly, but there was something I was seeing a few times.  When I was doing Blue’s neck points and I was “looking” to see if they seemed alright, I “saw” something that was not a point, and that after a moment I figured must be the “other side” of her activated point on the back of her neck.  I knew I wasn’t seeing a point, probably because I know there’s not a point there in the center where I was seeing it, but there was something there, even though I’m sure I wasn’t seeing the kind of thing TAG sees when he talks about seeing them.  Anyway, that was unusual for me, and I’m noting it.

Also saw something that was not points but was *something” on Sh.  It was like I could just see the energy flowing *around* her body as she was sitting, post-points.  It had a direction to it that I could sort of “see”.  In her case it was moving around a lot, but unusual that I saw anything at all, so notable.

Finally, sort of saw something on my leg when TAG and I were talking about the leg point thing before we’d decided to experiment with them.  No color, as usual, but almost a thickness in the air around the point.

“dragging 5 Gs” – I felt like shit coming down the mountain. I usually feel good coming down, even when I’m totally hosed like I was after the lave tete work which is the only time so far I really felt I’d reached my limits in terms of energy work.  Mountain-descending used to be a “I bet I could fly down” type of feeling, and even when the worst “hyperness” wore off,  I have tended to feel energized, if a little dizzy or disoriented, post-points work.  But this time I was feeling slower and slower, like my legs didnt want to hold me up anymore.  I actaully considered sitting down on the bike path on the way back to the parking area.  I didn’t, I kept going, but I’d never felt like sitting before.  Later, TAG said when he went down the mountain he felt like he was “dragging 5 Gs” behind him, and I wrote that down because it seemed a pretty apt metaphor for what I was feeling too.

erotic aspect/energy (changing senses/reception of energy, people getting all “puddly”)

back pain (gone, then today has moved)

“circuits” versus meridians (the “points” on Bill’s sides)

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I finally figured out how to insert pictures…

but I have not figured out how to make wordpress’s new admin pge work for me, so I’m not going to be putting much text tino this poas.  I can’t see what I’m typing half the time. Sucks.

These photos were taking at our most recent gathering on Dec 20, 2008 at Kwan Yin House.

dec 20 08 synod

dec 20 08 synod

It was an exciting gathering with presence of several fellow Workers who came from great distances to join us at Mt. Arabia.  There was points work, consecration, cross-consecration, note comparing, speculation on unmapped points, planning for the future.  I didn’t get any photos this time, but some will doubtless become available on + Allen Greenfield’s livejournal.

On a personal note, I still can’t reliably see the points (this came up as a question yesterday), but this does not prevent me from administering them.  Instead I “feel” them.  A few years ago, when the initial “hand effect” just about knocked me down and continued to be very weird to live with for a long time, I usually experienced them as something almost “electrical.”  In talking with + Allen yesterday, I realized that I very often didn’t feel this sort of energy as so “electric” anymore.  In other words, it’s not as “sharp” anymore, though it’s still almost palpable.  Allen noted that my hands shook a bit as I administered some points as if I was feeling the current of energy as electrical.  It occurred to me that I may simply be accustomed to the sensation now, somewhat acclimated to it.  As + Heosphoros & + Peristera and I have discussed, we can no longer NOT use this “energy” in magickal work any more than we can not use oxygen – it’s just there all the time, in a manner of speaking.  It’s certainly easier to access, somehow, on the mountain and at other power spots (my imprecision with language troubles me here, but I’m doing the best I can), but I can easily raise it at will, and sometimes it “raises” itself when I’m not trying to raise it.  I don’t mean that it’s inactive when I’m not actively “using” it, just that there is a definite “surge” that happens sometimes and that is almost always focused in the hands for me.  I don’t know how much of that is consecration, how much points, how much certain points, or how much something else I’m not thinking of or aware of, but when the energy “rises” (again, bad word choice) in my hands, I can have trouble focusing on other things until I “do something” with it.

This “something” can be administering points, co-consecrating or ordaining someone, charging a talisman or bottle of oil or whatever, doing some Qi Gong to “spread out” the energy, etc.  I have noted elsewhere that the effect is similar, and imo may be related to, what some in the vodoun community have called “partial possession,” where instead of the lwa “riding” the “cheval” or serviteur, instead the lwa is guiding the serviteur’s feet or hands, or maybe his or head during divination; the difference is that the serviteur’s individual consciousness is not eclipsed, the serviteur maintaining some memory of the event is more likely, and it is likelier to happen outside a full-fledged ritual setting and when a serviteur has a pre-established, close working relationship with the lwa in question.  For instance, Dantor will sometimes come and tie points or pakets for me when I’m doing work with her for a client; she is in my hands, and she is “there,” but so am I.  It’s a partial possession that happens in a ritual setting, but not in a community setting.  (I should mention here that I do not advise anyone to attempt to be ridden by a lwa while they are alone and not in the presence of someone who knows what to do in case something goes wrong or sideways.)

These sorts of effects had happened to me a few times before I undertook the points work as a consecrated bishop several years ago, but since undertaking this work, it happens MUCH more frequently, much more “easily” (often rising unbidden), much more easily outside of a religious context (ie, I don’t have to be working with Legba or Dantor – I can be tying a mojo bag under the aegis of no particular saint or loa whatsoever, and have the hand thing kicking), and much more often outside of the context of my giving a reading.  I had felt similar effects while performing Mass, while doing energy work or sex magick, while doing Taiji or Qi Gong — but this is NOT exactly the same thing.

I feel like every time I try to explain this I make it more confusing, and also like I’m being repetitive, but maybe if I keep circling around it I’ll get a little closer to getting at what it’s all about.

The similarities I’ve set up between the “hand effect” and the rising energy as related to partial possession is not accidental though.  It is as if it sometimes has a “mind of its own.”  It’s not that it rises only in my hands – maybe it’s more that it sometimes “overflows” or is ready to overflow and that that experience is 99% of the time going to lead to the energy “flooding” towards my hands.  (The other 1% of the time it has “centered” or “pooled” in what may be my heart chakra or may be something to do with the complex of points 20-23 – I haven’t researched this thoroughly re. the meridians, which I believe to be related to the way some of these points seem “connected,” or are “sets,” or can be parts of “circuits.”  In any case, this has never happened on the mountain or when I’ve been administering points or assisting in their administration, nor has it happened during a consecration or ordination.  It has always been when somebody else has “been in my energy,” so to speak (with my permission of course).  So I don’t know if this has an active/passive dynamic somehow?  Or if these are two different things entirely (or mostly).

I have worked a bit with trying to focus the “rise” of energy to different parts of body, and I have had some success with that, but I have also made myself sick doing it (as if there’s such a thing as “forcing” it, which can have bad consequences, though that may mean other things too).

Ok, enough rambling.

August 18, 2007

The August 18, 2007 trip to Arabia resulted in some new experiences for me with the points work, which I posted about a bit in the above linked entries. 

As near as I can tell, I had points 96, 24, 28, 90, 91, 54, 55, 56, 57, 61, 62, 63, 64, 85, and 86 activated.You can see a sketch of the points map in PDF format here https://taunaamah.wordpress.com/points-chauds-reference-guide-in-pdf/

24 and 28 were actually pleasurable to have empowered, which was a first. They haven’t all been unpleasant, but the earlier experiences were certainly not “pleasant.” I find I have a hard time describing the effect without making it sound sexual or like the effect of a chemical hitting your system; the latter because the effect was sudden, and the former because it was a whole-body reaction more intense than a simple endorphin rush, but comparable I suppose, but neither of those are adequate or appropriately connoted comparisons. In any event, the experience was new to me; I recall having described previous point empowerment as akin to licking a car battery, so I’m perfectly happy to be at a place where the energy is not so raw to me now. Tau Heosphoros was assisting Tau Allen Greenfield with the empowerment and was supporting me from behind, and he reported feeling the “push” of those points clear through my body.

Between points 24/28 and 85/86 — from the second and third points to the last points — my arms were tingling, and there was a bit of pain associated with that, some sharpness, though certainly not unbearable. TAG did some work at the top of my shoulders which doesn’t correspond to any mapped points, and this really felt like it “connected some dots.” I suspected at the time that they plugged into, perhaps capped, some meridian, but I have not adequately investigated this. Post-empowerment, felt good, light. I don’t think I got what I have come to call my post-points crash, which generally follows my post-points hyper weirdness, on this occasion. This was also the occasion of a couple of ordinations to priest and priestess, and one to deacon. Attendees, many of whom have posted their own notes for this Aug 18 2007 event, included the Reverends Heosphorus and Peristera of Liber Sanguinis Luciferi; Fr. Dositheos of Ormus Lodge; Bishop R; Priestess L; and Bishop L. 

October 20, 2007

Some among you will be interested to note that upon our arrival at the mountain, we were circled and “flown over” by a black helicopter. It was a not a coincidental passing; the same helicopter flew over our spot three times. The sun not having fully set, we were still legal to be on the mountain, so this was very strange and unprecedented in our work on the mountain so far.

This was a rather big event, with several brothers and sisters in the Work who had traveled from out of town to participate. The path to Mt. Arabia was full of obstacles for some of us. You can read about a few in Tau Allen Greenfield‘s blog, and for myself I ran into problems with scheduling, traffic, detours, and getting lost. But we made it to the mountain, and welcomed Sister S and Brother K as newly consecrated Bishops apostolic and gnostic to the Work.

After the consecrations, I assisted Tau Allen Greenfield with the activation of points on a guest and on Bishop K, and I worked with some points on Bishop L  for healing purposes. This was my second attempt at administering the empowerment points on another, the first occurring much earlier in my travels on this path, in 2005, as outlined in the archive in the Pages column of this blog. It, er, went a lot better this time. Our honored guest I had trouble connecting with at first; we had to ask the usual piercing/body jewelry questions, and frankly I forget what the deal was, but we adjusted fire somehow (I think he removed some metal jewelry) and the points seemed to take. With brother K, the connection was much “easier,” and while I think in my relative inexperience I was a little too forceful in administering the points, he did fine – his energy was strong, solid, serene, and very very grounded. No difficulty there. In fact, I was moved to administer a set of points that I have seen make people a little wobbly-kneed before (including myself), but I felt like I should do them, and then I asked when he would be back in the area again, and since that was up in the air, I did them, because I felt like somebody should soon, and the next time might not be soon (these would be the trio of 1/97, 2, and 3 on the crown of the head and if I recall correctly the corresponding “end of circuit” point at the base of the spine, but I’m less sure about that). He had no difficulty with them, and on thinking and writing about it over the next few days, I realize that those points on him were already activated; what I did did *something* to shift or adjust them, tweak them a little, but they were already activated. (It is my understanding that Bishop K has been working a Memphis-Misraim path for a good while; this is doubtless the explanation.)

I was and remain frustrated at my inability to see the points; I have to rely on feeling them, and I don’t always know exactly what I’m feeling, but as I’m so far working only under the supervision of more experienced administrators of the points, I am confident that I’m not doing any harm, at any rate.

Oct 27/28, 2007

Traveled to the home base of Liber Sanguinis Luciferi to do Work with fellow Bishops Heosphoros, Peristera, and R.  Administered some points on Brother [info]noxenla, and received some valuable feedback and practical pointers on administering the points from all three of my brethren in the Work. We witnessed, noted, and discussed some of the connections betweens different points and “circuits” that seemed to relate or connect them, and after making some observations about the points as they were connected on R., Peristera tested her observations on me. We found that while we could “explore” already-activated points and track connections between them and other points, there was not a discernable point-to-point correlation; in other words, the points that seemed very closely connected on one person were not necessarily the same in another person (though they seemed close, probably on the same meridian as would be expected, but the “tunnels” or ” paths” or connections between points does not appear to be identical in every human body. We speculated, and intend to explore, the veracity and implications of this idea in the future.

Peristera, in exploring my already-activated points and which points they seemed to be integrally connected to, worked on a couple of my unmapped points, and I had the same experience I had at the August Arabia trip, in that the energy was very pleasurable. This is a marked contrast to previous work in general, as I noted above, as well as in particular; Tau Peristera and I go back in friendship and magickal work 17 years, and I am familiar with her energy. Nevertheless, earlier experiments in manipulating points had resulted in the characteristic “jarring” or “raw” energy I described above that was a hallmark of my earliest points work.

January 12/13 2008

At the home base of the newly-chartered Ormus Lodge, Frater Dositheos, Tau Allen Greenfield, and I met to discuss various aspects of the Work, ongoing research, and plans for the future in general as well as upcoming Spring work on Mt. Arabia. I had points activated (I can’t tell you where they map on our map yet; one of the significant findings we discussed is the movement and shifting of points on the body over time and even within a few seconds on occasion), though they were in the 32-41 zone and then point 58). I again experienced more refined, clearer, more “integrative,” though no less intense, energy in receiving the points. During our discussion of the “magick hands effect” and of the experience of receiving points in general, I attempted my usual “diagnostic check” method of “knocking on the door” of someone else’s energy and illustrated my explanation by hovering over Fr. Dositheos’ hands. I again had a powerful and far from negative experience, and T.A.G. reported being able to “see” the accumulating energy (which, again, I could not see).

T.A.G. activated some points on Fr. D; one point in particular, either 55 or 62, “kicked back.” I have been present during a great deal of TAG’s energy work, and had never seen this exact reaction from him before during difficulties or anomalies in administering points, as if it were “sharp” or “quick,” and as if it physically pained him for a split second.

After a bit, I activated some points on Fr. D with no similar effect.

Today, however coincidentally, I have moderate (not minor but not severe) pain in my lower back, in the 54/56 region, more than a cun to the left of the centered point 58 which TAG activated that night. This is the area which is affected by my degenerated cartilage around my sacroiliac joint and which particularly troubles me when I am in longer periods of inactivity; however, lately, I have returned to my optimal level of physical activity and am well on my way to regaining my non-insane-busy level of physical fitness, so this pain is unusual and surprising to me. It is also at “haven’t been exercising for a LONG time” levels, which is a worse level than I get after 4-6 weeks of laying out of my regular training regime.

Also of interest was some little time spent with archived QBLH materials and a great deal of theoretical and historical discussion of the points history, background, and future, including some tentative group forays into particular areas of Franco-Haitian Gnostic Voudon practice that align closely with my particular path in this Work.

On re-reading after some time has elapsed, I realize that I sort of went off on a tangent about the Haitian voudon connections and background of the points work and probably didn’t tie those very clearly into the current work as it’s manifesting, nor did I explain the differences, primarily that the Haitian voudon use of the term frequently refers to objects or items created for the express purpose of housing a spirit, making a link, and/or synthesizing an essence. In the current points chauds work, at least among those I am actively working with and communicating with, we are using the term to refer exclusively to points that are located on/within the human body. The question of how, or whether, these are related to the loa, to external and/or “supernatural” entities, to Haitian voudon, or any number of other things/entities, is still being explored, and there is nothing resembling a consensus on it.

Also, on the note of a consensus, I think it may be in the nature of human beings to make sense of things by relating them to other things they already have vocabulary for and some sort of experience with — if no experience, at least some sticking point to use for analogy. This is certainly true of me, and it’s proven true in my work as a teacher and guides many theories of pedagogy. So what you get when you read people’s accounts is often, as I’ve mentioned elsewhere (in my personal blog), a case of the vocabulary shaping the perception. In my case, I am very interested in the voudon aspect of this work, and my discussion of it frequently goes over into language associated with Chinese medicine, ref. chi, acupressure points, and meridians.

That is not to say that what I’m saying is any way more real, true, or accurate in terms of analogy or exploration than what anybody else is saying. I’m just trying out vocabulary and making analogies, and exploring my interests, and that is what I would love to see others engaged in the work do. I might sit here all day long in my brain and say “this doesn’t have a damned thing to do with Reiki” but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to hear what a Reiki practitioner has to say about this, and it doesn’t mean I won’t change my mind.

I would love to see the participants in the work share in the best vocabulary they’ve got at their disposal, and in the same sort of non-directive, non-“I’m the expert,” non-dismissive sort of way that we’ve managed pretty well  so far. Because finally, this work *is* very personal, and we absolutely cannot and should not, in my not so humble opinion, dictate other people’s engagement with or experiences with it. We can recommend, and, if in a position to do so, refuse to participate in certain activities, but I hope we can continue to avoid *directing* other people’s activities when such direction has not been sought.

That’s not to say I wouldn’t love to see some more coherence, or at the very least communication, work, recording, and sharing of info among active workers, because I would; that is hardly the sort of thing one can demand of another, though, particularly in a non-hierarchical sort of setup like we’ve got. And frankly, I’m pretty sick of hierarchical setups.

Now, that and five bucks will get you a cup of coffee, but that’s where I stand, and now you know.

new city, maintenance

August 18, 2007

I have moved, and am now in fact closer to my synod and associated bishops than before; I expect this page will see more and more frequent updates.

I appreciate those readers who have informed me of broken links and I will be doing that sort of routine maintenance here shortly.  Also, if I can figure out how to put up some pictures, I’ll be doing that too.

update

May 30, 2007

I’m not dead, just busy.

I’ve updated the links section with a few new sites of interest.

Under Construction

January 4, 2007

Right now, all salient info is contained in the links section to the right of this page.  I am gradually going to move my Gnostic Vodou records here, I think, either copying them or transferring them from the site they’re currently hosted on, as this site is simply easier to update and easier to manage interaction/correspondence on. Stay Tuned.

Please note that none of the organizations or persons linked to or referred to on this site are to be interpreted as endorsing the work of Tau Naamah and/or the Draconigenae. I currently work in free association with Tau Allen Greenfield, Tau Peristera de Magdalene, and Tau Heosphoros Iacchus, as well as a number of other active members of the points chauds working group who have not elected to be mentioned by name. However, this site is my own doing and their mention here is not to be interpreted as endorsement.